cause i'll be missing you.

i get twice the shit today. i feel like just hearing emo songs and just lie on the bed.
recived a shocking news today. rest in peace grandma. guess u alr know what happen from the previous sentence. but my dad said she died peacefully. she slept and died. ):
secondly,
to ----- ------ :
bravo isnt complete without you. its 17, 15 +2. not 16. please dont leave us. i beg you. you've been a great ---. pls pls pls x infinity. we need you. you've been with us for just these few months, but you've been great. you noticed things that were never noticed from our part. you were there to encourage us. during shooting test. during orienteering. in every thing we do, you believed in us. you believed that we can do it. we did it, because of you and ---. we did our best. you cant leave us so soon. our journey with you doesnt end here, and not so fast. please.dont leave us just like that. ---- please stay as our ---. we really love you.
Please......----, please don't go just like that.

there's just too many goodbyes in one day. and i cant take it. with tears flowing down my eyes, i write with what i feel in my heart.
i need to talk to someone badly. and the day is tmrw. am i ready?